My Dampen Soul

When my tears dampen my own soul
I could feel the sogginess of my own thoughts
So heavy to be kept inside my little heart
But my lips don’t open the door
So that I can bid them farewell

My eyes wide open to let go off them
But my eyelids tightly shut
I try to blink them but they say
That they don’t want the dream to fall out

Beautiful loser : Life To Death

Lay there in the hope to open up my eyes again
Surrounded by my own eternity
Flowers to cover my body so gracefully
My heart isn’t beating now
Mind not replicating anything visible
How beautifully I’ve been betrayed by my own soul

Shooting Star

A shooting star is what i'm..
So close your eyes and make a wish..
a wish before I die and dissolve in an unknown..
till the time I'm aive..
I'll fulfill what you've wished for..

A streak of light is what I'm
pass you by when you least expect it
Leaving you astonished and astound
and will disappear suddenly loosing myself
in the darkness or the black holes of the universe

To be reincarnated again to twinkle above you
in your clear blue sky....

You & Me

I will take u in my arms
so that you wont feel tired
will kiss your eyes so that it wont ache
will hold your hands
make you feel me
all tiredness will vanish
me close to you nothing else on your mind
you won't feel tired at all
my head on your shoulders and cool breeze coming touching our faces
will take all the pain
we'll laugh
laugh and laugh
frm dwan to dusk
holding each other to never let go
no other expectations
no desires
mindes are empty
no thoughts
just u and me
talking from our eyes
thinking with our hands
seeing from our lips
just u and me
so pious
so pure
so divine.....

Rich with empty hands


Some times our hands are full

But we r not ready to share

Sometimes we have enough of patience

But we are not ready to bear


The pain what we see around

And how ignorantly we move our eyes

When we see an immortal soul crying

And tears in our eyes are dried


Drenched in the mud of hunger

Patched with the abuse around

Body bruised by the needs

And that's all that surrounds


Us is the missing word

Me and myself is present

What we care about is the money

Yet not enough to spend


Why we make both ends meet

Just to live a simple life

We save to spend more

And for nothing else we strive


An aimless life with materialistic necessacities

We work towards the fulfillment

Did we ever checked our souls

For internal gratification or contentment


We are still starved with so much food

Still naked with the expensive cloths on

As we ignore the dying life beside

And rather choose to move on




Mystical life


sometimes i sitback and think about this mystical life

that how i followed it with my bare foot without understanding

the way i crawled on the terrane made by the circumstances

and how i became subdued and demanding


all phases lived with dignity, poise and dare

with no knowledge of own or derived

but how i shared each situation

with my own soul and tiny, tingling mind


i grabed the hand of the experiences

which thought me more how to survive

survival of the fittest is the theory

and the world's laugh when u cry


I learned from every moment of the time

i took the life as it came on my way

handled the turbulations in front on my own

recalling all the aspects at the end of the day


that's how i educated myself

from the raw realities of the life

without being beside anyone

taking life on my own stride

Wishing

I sit back and think
What all went by
When I was standing beside
All dead and numb

I could see all and everything moving
But could not move ahead
Or wave my hand to stop
The people or things I desired to stay

All passed, been a bygone for me now
And I cherish those smiles & tears
Which I treasure in this heart of mine
Which is locked with the keys unknown

I wish I could have held the time
From moving ahead leaving me behind
I could have stopped the motion of the earth
Rather moved the sun and the skies

somebody inspired me..

Somebody inspired me today to write this..poem below..i hope my inspiration becomes the inspiration of somebody else's creation..
Oops hope i'm not confusing you...
But i do need that creation to put it here on my page for sure and that's a deal...breach of which will be the breach of agreement between inspiration & creation..!!! alright..will wait for it sure..

I stir my soul....

I stir my soul in the cup of life with my emotions
As I always blend my sorrows with fake smiles at times
My eyes layered to cover my heart’s window
As earlier it wasn’t casing much to my solace

Spoon of my thoughts makes the ripples of confusion
The surface disturbed as my mind all the time
But beneath it’s my optimism, hope and faith
Buried deep down and resting in peace

They come up when life hits hard
And at times when my trust spills out of it
To assure me that I’m still alive
And able enough to slow down this motion a bit

Then I hold on to it firmly because it’s mine
And sit back to take a deep sip out of it
Keep it in my mouth for a while to taste
All the flavors it has to offer to satiate my spirit

Refresh myself again to get up
To live and fight back
Breaking my sleep of illusions
To bring me back to reality.

First day of year to work

Hey now i keep talking to myself at times..coz i'm so talkative that i dont wait for people to be around to talk..moreover new city..hardly know anbody and dont have any longings too, to know anyone..just wana be myself and with myself quite happy and content in that..partying since last 3 days..legs are broken now..but had fun..i'm so much in to music and dancing that i dont even care who's there or who's not but bet it..to enjoy dancing you should have a good partner..else i love dancing alone..palnning to join some class to learn salsa...but again same prob...a good partner..hope i'll get one..i don't understand onething in my life..why people want to get in to my life..even though i don't want them to..that bugs me a lot..listening to Nickle Back's "Photograph" jus luv it..all tired and worn out..but not dead yet..this year i'll start a new life altogether..will behave more mature,concentrate more on my work...have gone very good in counselling..so will help out people by moving them towards positiveness..especially my team..
tht's all for now..

Thoughts

Our thoughts meet in our minds
As we have touched each other from far
We don’t say anything to each other
But our lips usually remain ajar

How you hear which I don’t say
As birds chirp with the ray of sunshine
How you know that I need you
As flowerers never ask for bee’s touch divine

I spend whole night with you and imaginations
As stars twinkle with the sky so blue
They vanish as sun rises in east
But I live and die each moment with you

I wait for the sun to come up on my forehead
And shining of rays on my face
The stars in my eyes so bright
When this dream with you get replaced

The ring of the moon in my finger
The round of the sun in my arms
Smell of the earth on my body
And your feel and touch becomes charm

I don’t know when this will come true
But all I know is you
I trust everything you say to me
I loved you, this I already knew

Mai

kuch likhne ka mun sa hua
to pakadh li kalam haath main
soch ki likh daloo zindagi apni in kaagazo pur
jo khaali hai soone hai or safed bhi hai
kyonki sub kehte hai ki main
rung laati hoon apne saath main

rung mujhme hai ya main rango mai
mujhe ye paheli smaujh na aaii
bus samajh aaya to itna hi
ki haan, hur lamha jiya hai maine
apni hi sahar or subah mai, din kaii

Din jo guzar gaye jaise bhaar or puthjhad
sardiyon ki thund si meri aahe
subha ki onse se meri ankhon ki nami
or din ke ujjale si meri hansi

bus itna hi ya kuch aur bhi
pata nahi kaise dhoondh paoongi
mai apne aap ko is bheed mai
ya phir yu hi chalti jaoongi

Dustuk

Dustuk si deti hai khushi mere durwaaze pur
Pur koi nahi hai darwaaze ko kholne wala
Main hoo ek kinaare pe kamre ke
Bhara hai kamra roohon se,pur koi nahi bolne wala

Mai bolti hoon to takrati hai awaaz deewaron se
Laut ke aati hai mujhe baatane ki koi nahi hai
Jo sun sake mujhe or samajh sake mere vajood ko
Aisa koi farishta door door tak nahi hai

Phir sochti hoon ki kya zaroorat hai kisi ki
Uth ke khol denti hoon kiwad yeh
Pur Kushi mujhe se mil kur mayoos na ho
Bus soch kur reh jaati hoon yeh

Mai kush hoon apne aap mai
Koi zarrorat kisiki mehsoos nahi hoti
Pur yeh dustoor hai duniya ka ke
Koi bhi rooh akeli nahi hoti

Pretend

The silence we share at times
Is worth more than the arguments
The smiles that we pass while crossing
Is worth more than the fake laughter’s

I don’t want to loose myself
While loving you endlessly
My individuality does matter
Even if I talk to u carelessly

Don’t take me for granted
That my mute lips can’t speak anyhow
As I know how to contradict
Even f u speak fast when I want to hear it slow

Sometimes we say what we don’t mean
Just to make each other’s happy
This pretentious approach of our thoughts
Make our own souls scrappy

I don’t need that touch if there are no feelings
I don’t want that hunger in your eyes
I don’t want to see you begging for it
I don’t need those heartless hugs and cries

I want u to walk beside me not pushing me from the back
I want your hand in my hand always
Holding me gently when I fall
Not punching of your feeling or thoughts

Love me for only love and nothing else
As your love can surely own me
And I’ll be having no hassles for that
But don’t flatter or try to crown me

I hope you can understand what I say without speaking
Because I move my lips but theirs no one to hear
My eyes saying it all with tears, read them
My soul is always clear and sheer

Linger

Dissatisfaction lingers as the day passes on
And I keep on asking myself what is the reason
No answers coming from within my soul
My mood swings as the days of the season

Wana talk to someone wana blurt it out all
Wana scream and shout and let go off my soul
My thoughts caged inside my mind
All entangled, my emotions feelings it’s hard to unwind

My mind is not at peace along my heart
Trying to find out what’s pulling me apart
I always been a carefree bird in the sky
I laugh or pretend to, but I don’t wana cry

My hands are swinging while I walk
May be to hold on to something
I keep quiet but my imaginations talk
As I want to explore everything

All are around me but I wana be alone
Aloof in my own world and relations
My love is there by my side to keep me at ease
But I’m engrossed with my own creations

I don’t want anything to hold me back
I just wana fly in the clouds away
So blue to make me feel alive
With breeze let my soul and body sway

Your Love....

I was sitting still in the dark holding on to myself
you came and opened the door and I could see the sunshine
I became numb to all the emotions and sensations
you touched me and made me feel it’s divine

Your love and the way you desire
Me and My soul, tightly in your arms
The way you long for a kiss
I shiver I quiver, in my mind with my own qualms

Your existence was the perfect
When I needed it the most
My life was a dessert of pains
With you I found what I’ve lost

You are the oasis to my entangled thoughts
Shore to the waves of my emotions
I promise I will love you more
With all I have, and all the devotions

bus yoon hi..

Hamne likhna shuru kiya jub khayaal aane lage
Yeh nahi ki hum naye naye shaayar hai
Ye shayaarana andaaz to hamesha hi tha
Bus kuch pal pehle hi hue aapke kaayal hai
Likh lete hai dil ka gubbar nikalne ko
Par haan dil hamara succha hai
Yoon hi nahi hamne ikraar israar kiya
Aap pyaar ki gehrayee samajh le to accha hai

zindagi ki taraf...

Jub bhi zindagi ki taraf badhe kadam
To aisa laga ki aanchal thama kisi ne
Kisi ne awaaaz de ke roka, na jaane diya
Hum to chahte the ki badh jaye rah pur
Na mudh ke denkhe kya reh gaya peeche
Pur yeh waqt kumbakht nikal gaya aage
Ruftaar itni tez thi ki
koshish kar ke bhi pakadh na payeek
ek lamha hume laga sanjoya humne
pur yeh dhoka tha hamaari ankhon ka
ki pher jaan na saki duniya ka
hum to hur pul ji rahe the
pur is zindagi ne humko jeene na diya.

Kahan se laoon zindagi dhoond ke

Kahan se laoon zindagi dhoond ke
Mai hur pal jeeti marti hoon
Baat ti hoon main honton pe kushiya
Pur hur pal andarr ghut ti hoon
Zindagi udhti bhi nahi pankh pasar
Ke koi shikwa na rahe
Rehti hai saath satth pur bilkul anjaani si
khojti hoon mai apne aap ko
khud mai,khuda main
honth khulte hai pur ye hansi hai anmani si
hansate hai sub saath jub main hansti hoon
pur koi nahi jaanta kitni khokhli hai hansi
sub ki zindagi main apna sukh jodh do
par ye dard kumbakth choddta hi nahi

Waste

The torn pieces oh my emotions make sound
Inside the bag of my body as I move
My heart carries the leftover of the people I met
Staled, spoiled and stink emerging out of it
My soul kept at the corner drenched in my own tears
All trickling with the dreams I had which got pierced
And pricked by the harshness ,they felt each time they were handled
I forgot to put the sign “Fragile” “Handle with care”
As I thought everything is as good as we feel
But my thoughts are another waste to be dumped
By the corner of the lane my life traveled so far
Could see the debris of my desires it left
My emotions oozing out of me all bruised
Patched here and there with blood stains
It aches a lot because each movement further
Hurts with great impact my legs unable to help
My senses not responding to my needs as all articulations messed up in my brain
My hands motionless not ready to hold any hand
As the assurance they got was never unfeigned
But yes my spirit alive with conviction in god
That he’ll deliver me from all the rot I gathered
Hope is still breathing to get to clean vicinity
Faith is still clinging on with all strength
To overcome all I had, to dump all I collected inside

Story of a princess

I saw her sitting next to her window
Dangling her head out
Looking for somebody far coming
Her eyes were wide spread out

It’s being 2 months from now
I see her their everyday
It’s not that I always look for her
Her window is on my way

She rolls her eyes to both the corners
To take as much as she can in her eyes
Though she looks a bit dull from their
But she sits with whole lot of pride

I met a guy at the corner once
And asked what the story is behind
He wasn’t so sure about the fact
But he made the mystery unwind

He narrated the life of her’s
As some story in the book
I never had any interest
But I found myself hooked

She was the queen of the hearts
Way back in early days
When she moved the lives moved
Many hearts on her way were laid

She had that dignified aura around her
That no man ever tried to come near
Everybody had soft corner but
Nobody tried to do the dare

Then one day this prince arrived
A night in shining armor
He put his heart in front of her
He was a born charmer

She surrendered after lot of struggle
The prince was happy as he never been
The lady got prettier with his love
To get married she was keen

Prince promised to come back early
And she stayed back to wait
But he’s gone never to return
And she though he might get late

She sat there waiting for him to get back
He never arrived in the city again
She kept her hopes high as sky
To see him, but all in vain

Oh that’s so tragic for a human
To loose the love of his life
Nobody can deny the truth
Though it cuts like knife

The other day I saw a gathering
In front of her home
She died waiting their
That window became her dome

Every body wiped this fact as
A sad story with the expected end
Later I heard about the prince, who kept his promise
Though he died in battle settlement

I hope both souls must have met
Up above in the in the sky
She died with lot of hopes
Now and then I see her eyes