Soul Space

Ji Chahe...

2008-05-29T18:14:00.000-07:00

Aaj itni khushi de ae khuda
ki khushi se mer jane ko ji chahe
aksar log gamon se merte hai
aaj hansi se mer jaane ko ji chahe
bahaut fenke pathar is dariyae dil mai
aaj to pathar se dil lagane ko ji chahe
bahaut khoya unki galiyon mai apne aapko
deedar ho ek baar to fir gum jane ko ji chahe
wo har bar poochete rahe hamre pyar ka sababab
unke sawal ka jawab bun jane ko ji chahe
bhagti dhaudti in naso ka koi khaas mutlub nahi
uske jaane se ab to jaan jaane ko ji chahe
wo zindagi hi kya jismai tu na ho rubaroo
ab bachi her ghadi ko azmaane ko ji chahey
Yeh waqt kat ta raha mujhe herdum yu hin bewaqt
ab to iski hi maar se mer jane ko ji chahe
aaj itni khushi de khuda
ki khushi se mer jane ko ji chahe

Akelapan

2007-03-29T07:06:00.000-07:00

Aksar mai tanhaai se bhaaga karti thi

Dara karti thi soone pan se akelepan se

Par aaj yeh tanhaai ajeeb sa sukoon deti hai

Pyara sa marmari sparsh mere khayaalo ko

Aaj phir khaali chaar diwari hai

Par ek vada hai sunhari shaam ka

Shaam jo mohabbat se bhari hai

Saath jo succha hai,anmol hai

Raath jo karvaton mai nahi beet ti

Aankhon me kat jaati hai

Chandi ke sapne dekhte huye

Haantho mai haanth liye

Saanse jo zor ki saath saath chalti hai

Ehsaas jo doudtey hai nabz mai

Kuch kahey ankahey se khayaal

Baat tey hai hum apne honton se

Aaj yeh akelapan such mai sukoon deta hai

Meri ruh ko, mere vajood ko

Or meri zindagi ko

Home

2007-03-22T10:17:00.000-07:00

A room where two souls live together
Building their hopes and dreams
And engrossed in each other
Hanging the paintings on the walls
Of their expectations
Adorning the corners with their love and trust
Opening up the doors to the new relations

Time To Depart

2006-12-14T04:15:00.000-08:00

Time to depart
To move ahead in life
I guess I have to stroll more
To reach to what I strive

Change is what is expected
And welcomed all the time
You don’t know what you get
When you flip the dime

Bidding adieu and farewells
And moving back to memory lane
Blessing and wishing all of you
With time we know everything starts to wane

We all have to move someday
Going ahead for good
May god be with us forever
In are all likelihoods

Bemused

2006-12-10T11:26:00.000-08:00

I’m coiling my self around your thoughts
As a serpent on a tree in summer

Lying lazy around it
Conceiving one dream out of another

As a sequence of another life
In another birth of mine

Ur The Inspiration

2006-11-20T05:03:00.000-08:00

Dedicated to my LOVE

When I lost all the faith that I can’t go on
U lend me your hand, told me to hold on

I gathered what was scattered around me, to start anew
There are rarely lucky people, and I’m one of the few

You taught me how to smile again, wiping all the tears
To love again with all that I have in me, and keeping no fear

I was hopeless to find someone new, now to love in this birth
U made me look at myself in the mirror by cleaning all the dirt

Ur the inspiration for me and for this life of mine
To drive ahead on this open road with your love divine

Baadal

2006-09-20T04:12:00.000-07:00

Aaj jub badalon ko dekha to mun kia
Kash umeed ki seedhi laga ke pahunch jaati
Upar us safed makhmali palang pe
Or so leti ji bhar ke ye poori zindagi

Socha kitne khushnaseeb hai yeh
Kale, safed, gehre, hulke hawa ke saath behte
Baras jaate hai kahin bhi jahan mun chhahe
Jub bhi dil bhar aata hoga inka

Chal padhte hai jidhar ki taraf bahaav ho
Bina soche apni seemaye, jo hoti nahi
Behroopiye kub udh chale kub bhinga de
Inka kuch bhi pata nahi

Kaash Jeevan se upar uth ke
Hum bhi hulke ho jaate
Dharti ke is moh se
to udh paate in badalon ke saath

OverGrown

2006-09-14T04:48:00.000-07:00

I write, when I’m alone with my own self
Without any thoughts or reactions
But still alive that I can feel for sure,
Surety of living to know my self more

But the more I try to know
I fail in the same tragically
I find myself outside my own space
And I know, I won’t find it consequently

I guess I’ve lost it all
Looser in an unknown sense
An absentee, yet present all the way
Vanished, but yet carrying an appearance

No words to speak about anything
No thoughts to lend as such
I guess I’ve overgrown now
From my own being, so much!!

Khidmat

2006-06-14T09:51:00.000-07:00

khidmat kare koi hamari aisi apni bisaat kahan??
dhul jaaye sub aks jahan ke,aisi wo barsaat kahan??
apni khidmut aap hi karle to kaafi hai,
khwahish rakkhe kisi or se aisi wo aukaat kahan??

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mohabbat ka sila kya hota hai,mohabat karne waalon se poochiye...
mur mur ke jeene mai kya mila hai,mohabbat karne waalon se poochiye....

So ja jake meri zindagi...

2006-06-13T08:56:00.000-07:00

So ja jake meri zindagi
Kal phir aa jana naye sooraj ke saath
Nayi kiran ka chola odhe
Ugtey huye apne hi poorane ehsaas se

Cha jana ghunghor baadalon par
Roshini ki parat banke
Dhoomil kar dena taron ko
Jo chamkte hai andhere ke saaye mai

Rhna poore din mere saath Meri banke,
Par anjaan rehna jane pehchano se
Kaat lena har pehar meri aagosh mai
Paas mere dil ki dhudkano ki tarah

Sandhya hogi sirf hamari
Yaad kartey beetengi, din jo guzara
Haatho mai haanth , tu
Zindagi mere saath or wo ehsaas

Dhal jana meri umeedon ki silvaton mai
Jo aaj ke din se maine rakkhi thi
Kho jana meri shoonyata mai
Chand bun ke roshan karna meri icchaye

Raat ke pehar mai doob jana
Mere hriday mai pyar banke
Bus mehsoos karoon tera daudna
Is rago mai athkheliyan karna

Gaake lori kahoo tujhse phir
So ja jake meri zindagi
Kal phir aa jana naye sooraj ke saath

How I wanted to be known as....

2006-05-03T16:10:00.000-07:00

How I wanted to be known as wind
Blowing freely all around
Touching people’s faces and heart beneath
Being the reason to gulp me down to live

To be known as sunshine
Enlightening not the world
But people’s heart
Brightening their souls

Stars twinkling above
Not to light up the darkness
But to make the sky beautiful
Which never looks blue then.

To be the stream of water
Knowing no boundaries
Gushing through the throats
To relieve their wry hearts

To be the grass so green
And overgrown to cover the
Cracked earth beneath its own layer
To keep it moist soothing the feet touching it

To be the rise and setting of the sun
Which can be captured as an image
And cherished in the rooms
As memories of the days gone by

I wish I could be everything
Pleasant to the heart to eyes
To the souls and the minds
How I wish my wish to be accomplished

Me with Myself

2006-04-20T17:02:00.000-07:00

(Here goes a khushi waali poem...as requested ...ab juldi juldi comment karo..or batao..LOL :D)

Entwined in my own wishes & dreams
How happy I’m to be with my own soul

Looking in the mirror admiring my self
And wishing my own life the best ahead

Mayaaten...

2006-04-04T15:17:00.000-07:00

Mayaaten itni uthi armaano ki
Ki khud hi chal padhe kaandha dene

Hamare shaksiyat kahan mashhoor thi
Ki koi sun ke aa jaata
Foolon ka aakhiri guldasta dene

My Dampen Soul

2006-03-22T16:27:00.000-08:00

When my tears dampen my own soul
I could feel the sogginess of my own thoughts
So heavy to be kept inside my little heart
But my lips don’t open the door
So that I can bid them farewell

My eyes wide open to let go off them
But my eyelids tightly shut
I try to blink them but they say
That they don’t want the dream to fall out

Beautiful loser : Life To Death

2006-03-22T13:40:00.000-08:00

Lay there in the hope to open up my eyes again
Surrounded by my own eternity
Flowers to cover my body so gracefully
My heart isn’t beating now
Mind not replicating anything visible
How beautifully I’ve been betrayed by my own soul

Shooting Star

2006-03-04T06:48:00.000-08:00

A shooting star is what i'm..
So close your eyes and make a wish..
a wish before I die and dissolve in an unknown..
till the time I'm aive..
I'll fulfill what you've wished for..

A streak of light is what I'm
pass you by when you least expect it
Leaving you astonished and astound
and will disappear suddenly loosing myself
in the darkness or the black holes of the universe

To be reincarnated again to twinkle above you
in your clear blue sky....

You & Me

2006-03-03T15:16:00.000-08:00

I will take u in my arms
so that you wont feel tired
will kiss your eyes so that it wont ache
will hold your hands
make you feel me
all tiredness will vanish
me close to you nothing else on your mind
you won't feel tired at all
my head on your shoulders and cool breeze coming touching our faces
will take all the pain
we'll laugh
laugh and laugh
frm dwan to dusk
holding each other to never let go
no other expectations
no desires
mindes are empty
no thoughts
just u and me
talking from our eyes
thinking with our hands
seeing from our lips
just u and me
so pious
so pure
so divine.....

2006-02-25T06:56:00.000-08:00

Rich with empty hands

Some times our hands are full

But we r not ready to share

Sometimes we have enough of patience

But we are not ready to bear

The pain what we see around

And how ignorantly we move our eyes

When we see an immortal soul crying

And tears in our eyes are dried

Drenched in the mud of hunger

Patched with the abuse around

Body bruised by the needs

And that's all that surrounds

Us is the missing word

Me and myself is present

What we care about is the money

Yet not enough to spend

Why we make both ends meet

Just to live a simple life

We save to spend more

And for nothing else we strive

An aimless life with materialistic necessacities

We work towards the fulfillment

Did we ever checked our souls

For internal gratification or contentment

We are still starved with so much food

Still naked with the expensive cloths on

As we ignore the dying life beside

And rather choose to move on

Mystical life

sometimes i sitback and think about this mystical life

that how i followed it with my bare foot without understanding

the way i crawled on the terrane made by the circumstances

and how i became subdued and demanding

all phases lived with dignity, poise and dare

with no knowledge of own or derived

but how i shared each situation

with my own soul and tiny, tingling mind

i grabed the hand of the experiences

which thought me more how to survive

survival of the fittest is the theory

and the world's laugh when u cry

I learned from every moment of the time

i took the life as it came on my way

handled the turbulations in front on my own

recalling all the aspects at the end of the day

that's how i educated myself

from the raw realities of the life

without being beside anyone

taking life on my own stride

Wishing

2006-02-03T12:58:00.000-08:00

I sit back and think
What all went by
When I was standing beside
All dead and numb

I could see all and everything moving
But could not move ahead
Or wave my hand to stop
The people or things I desired to stay

All passed, been a bygone for me now
And I cherish those smiles & tears
Which I treasure in this heart of mine
Which is locked with the keys unknown

I wish I could have held the time
From moving ahead leaving me behind
I could have stopped the motion of the earth
Rather moved the sun and the skies

somebody inspired me..

2006-01-06T17:29:00.000-08:00

Somebody inspired me today to write this..poem below..i hope my inspiration becomes the inspiration of somebody else's creation..
Oops hope i'm not confusing you...
But i do need that creation to put it here on my page for sure and that's a deal...breach of which will be the breach of agreement between inspiration & creation..!!! alright..will wait for it sure..

I stir my soul....

2006-01-06T17:21:00.000-08:00

I stir my soul in the cup of life with my emotions
As I always blend my sorrows with fake smiles at times
My eyes layered to cover my heart’s window
As earlier it wasn’t casing much to my solace

Spoon of my thoughts makes the ripples of confusion
The surface disturbed as my mind all the time
But beneath it’s my optimism, hope and faith
Buried deep down and resting in peace

They come up when life hits hard
And at times when my trust spills out of it
To assure me that I’m still alive
And able enough to slow down this motion a bit

Then I hold on to it firmly because it’s mine
And sit back to take a deep sip out of it
Keep it in my mouth for a while to taste
All the flavors it has to offer to satiate my spirit

Refresh myself again to get up
To live and fight back
Breaking my sleep of illusions
To bring me back to reality.

First day of year to work

2006-01-02T14:52:00.000-08:00

Hey now i keep talking to myself at times..coz i'm so talkative that i dont wait for people to be around to talk..moreover new city..hardly know anbody and dont have any longings too, to know anyone..just wana be myself and with myself quite happy and content in that..partying since last 3 days..legs are broken now..but had fun..i'm so much in to music and dancing that i dont even care who's there or who's not but bet it..to enjoy dancing you should have a good partner..else i love dancing alone..palnning to join some class to learn salsa...but again same prob...a good partner..hope i'll get one..i don't understand onething in my life..why people want to get in to my life..even though i don't want them to..that bugs me a lot..listening to Nickle Back's "Photograph" jus luv it..all tired and worn out..but not dead yet..this year i'll start a new life altogether..will behave more mature,concentrate more on my work...have gone very good in counselling..so will help out people by moving them towards positiveness..especially my team..
tht's all for now..

Thoughts

2005-12-28T17:46:00.000-08:00

Our thoughts meet in our minds
As we have touched each other from far
We don’t say anything to each other
But our lips usually remain ajar

How you hear which I don’t say
As birds chirp with the ray of sunshine
How you know that I need you
As flowerers never ask for bee’s touch divine

I spend whole night with you and imaginations
As stars twinkle with the sky so blue
They vanish as sun rises in east
But I live and die each moment with you

I wait for the sun to come up on my forehead
And shining of rays on my face
The stars in my eyes so bright
When this dream with you get replaced

The ring of the moon in my finger
The round of the sun in my arms
Smell of the earth on my body
And your feel and touch becomes charm

I don’t know when this will come true
But all I know is you
I trust everything you say to me
I loved you, this I already knew

Mai

2005-12-28T17:45:00.000-08:00

kuch likhne ka mun sa hua
to pakadh li kalam haath main
soch ki likh daloo zindagi apni in kaagazo pur
jo khaali hai soone hai or safed bhi hai
kyonki sub kehte hai ki main
rung laati hoon apne saath main

rung mujhme hai ya main rango mai
mujhe ye paheli smaujh na aaii
bus samajh aaya to itna hi
ki haan, hur lamha jiya hai maine
apni hi sahar or subah mai, din kaii

Din jo guzar gaye jaise bhaar or puthjhad
sardiyon ki thund si meri aahe
subha ki onse se meri ankhon ki nami
or din ke ujjale si meri hansi

bus itna hi ya kuch aur bhi
pata nahi kaise dhoondh paoongi
mai apne aap ko is bheed mai
ya phir yu hi chalti jaoongi

Dustuk

2005-12-28T17:44:00.000-08:00

Dustuk si deti hai khushi mere durwaaze pur
Pur koi nahi hai darwaaze ko kholne wala
Main hoo ek kinaare pe kamre ke
Bhara hai kamra roohon se,pur koi nahi bolne wala

Mai bolti hoon to takrati hai awaaz deewaron se
Laut ke aati hai mujhe baatane ki koi nahi hai
Jo sun sake mujhe or samajh sake mere vajood ko
Aisa koi farishta door door tak nahi hai

Phir sochti hoon ki kya zaroorat hai kisi ki
Uth ke khol denti hoon kiwad yeh
Pur Kushi mujhe se mil kur mayoos na ho
Bus soch kur reh jaati hoon yeh

Mai kush hoon apne aap mai
Koi zarrorat kisiki mehsoos nahi hoti
Pur yeh dustoor hai duniya ka ke
Koi bhi rooh akeli nahi hoti

Pretend

2005-12-28T17:42:00.001-08:00

The silence we share at times
Is worth more than the arguments
The smiles that we pass while crossing
Is worth more than the fake laughter’s

I don’t want to loose myself
While loving you endlessly
My individuality does matter
Even if I talk to u carelessly

Don’t take me for granted
That my mute lips can’t speak anyhow
As I know how to contradict
Even f u speak fast when I want to hear it slow

Sometimes we say what we don’t mean
Just to make each other’s happy
This pretentious approach of our thoughts
Make our own souls scrappy

I don’t need that touch if there are no feelings
I don’t want that hunger in your eyes
I don’t want to see you begging for it
I don’t need those heartless hugs and cries

I want u to walk beside me not pushing me from the back
I want your hand in my hand always
Holding me gently when I fall
Not punching of your feeling or thoughts

Love me for only love and nothing else
As your love can surely own me
And I’ll be having no hassles for that
But don’t flatter or try to crown me

I hope you can understand what I say without speaking
Because I move my lips but theirs no one to hear
My eyes saying it all with tears, read them
My soul is always clear and sheer

Linger

2005-12-28T17:41:00.000-08:00

Dissatisfaction lingers as the day passes on
And I keep on asking myself what is the reason
No answers coming from within my soul
My mood swings as the days of the season

Wana talk to someone wana blurt it out all
Wana scream and shout and let go off my soul
My thoughts caged inside my mind
All entangled, my emotions feelings it’s hard to unwind

My mind is not at peace along my heart
Trying to find out what’s pulling me apart
I always been a carefree bird in the sky
I laugh or pretend to, but I don’t wana cry

My hands are swinging while I walk
May be to hold on to something
I keep quiet but my imaginations talk
As I want to explore everything

All are around me but I wana be alone
Aloof in my own world and relations
My love is there by my side to keep me at ease
But I’m engrossed with my own creations

I don’t want anything to hold me back
I just wana fly in the clouds away
So blue to make me feel alive
With breeze let my soul and body sway

Your Love....

2005-12-28T17:39:00.000-08:00

I was sitting still in the dark holding on to myself
you came and opened the door and I could see the sunshine
I became numb to all the emotions and sensations
you touched me and made me feel it’s divine

Your love and the way you desire
Me and My soul, tightly in your arms
The way you long for a kiss
I shiver I quiver, in my mind with my own qualms

Your existence was the perfect
When I needed it the most
My life was a dessert of pains
With you I found what I’ve lost

You are the oasis to my entangled thoughts
Shore to the waves of my emotions
I promise I will love you more
With all I have, and all the devotions

bus yoon hi..

2005-12-28T17:38:00.000-08:00

Hamne likhna shuru kiya jub khayaal aane lage
Yeh nahi ki hum naye naye shaayar hai
Ye shayaarana andaaz to hamesha hi tha
Bus kuch pal pehle hi hue aapke kaayal hai
Likh lete hai dil ka gubbar nikalne ko
Par haan dil hamara succha hai
Yoon hi nahi hamne ikraar israar kiya
Aap pyaar ki gehrayee samajh le to accha hai

zindagi ki taraf...

2005-12-28T17:33:00.000-08:00

Jub bhi zindagi ki taraf badhe kadam
To aisa laga ki aanchal thama kisi ne
Kisi ne awaaaz de ke roka, na jaane diya
Hum to chahte the ki badh jaye rah pur
Na mudh ke denkhe kya reh gaya peeche
Pur yeh waqt kumbakht nikal gaya aage
Ruftaar itni tez thi ki
koshish kar ke bhi pakadh na payeek
ek lamha hume laga sanjoya humne
pur yeh dhoka tha hamaari ankhon ka
ki pher jaan na saki duniya ka
hum to hur pul ji rahe the
pur is zindagi ne humko jeene na diya.

Kahan se laoon zindagi dhoond ke

2005-12-28T17:30:00.000-08:00

Kahan se laoon zindagi dhoond ke
Mai hur pal jeeti marti hoon
Baat ti hoon main honton pe kushiya
Pur hur pal andarr ghut ti hoon
Zindagi udhti bhi nahi pankh pasar
Ke koi shikwa na rahe
Rehti hai saath satth pur bilkul anjaani si
khojti hoon mai apne aap ko
khud mai,khuda main
honth khulte hai pur ye hansi hai anmani si
hansate hai sub saath jub main hansti hoon
pur koi nahi jaanta kitni khokhli hai hansi
sub ki zindagi main apna sukh jodh do
par ye dard kumbakth choddta hi nahi

Waste

2005-12-28T17:15:00.001-08:00

The torn pieces oh my emotions make sound
Inside the bag of my body as I move
My heart carries the leftover of the people I met
Staled, spoiled and stink emerging out of it
My soul kept at the corner drenched in my own tears
All trickling with the dreams I had which got pierced
And pricked by the harshness ,they felt each time they were handled
I forgot to put the sign “Fragile” “Handle with care”
As I thought everything is as good as we feel
But my thoughts are another waste to be dumped
By the corner of the lane my life traveled so far
Could see the debris of my desires it left
My emotions oozing out of me all bruised
Patched here and there with blood stains
It aches a lot because each movement further
Hurts with great impact my legs unable to help
My senses not responding to my needs as all articulations messed up in my brain
My hands motionless not ready to hold any hand
As the assurance they got was never unfeigned
But yes my spirit alive with conviction in god
That he’ll deliver me from all the rot I gathered
Hope is still breathing to get to clean vicinity
Faith is still clinging on with all strength
To overcome all I had, to dump all I collected inside

Story of a princess

2005-12-28T17:11:00.000-08:00

I saw her sitting next to her window
Dangling her head out
Looking for somebody far coming
Her eyes were wide spread out

It’s being 2 months from now
I see her their everyday
It’s not that I always look for her
Her window is on my way

She rolls her eyes to both the corners
To take as much as she can in her eyes
Though she looks a bit dull from their
But she sits with whole lot of pride

I met a guy at the corner once
And asked what the story is behind
He wasn’t so sure about the fact
But he made the mystery unwind

He narrated the life of her’s
As some story in the book
I never had any interest
But I found myself hooked

She was the queen of the hearts
Way back in early days
When she moved the lives moved
Many hearts on her way were laid

She had that dignified aura around her
That no man ever tried to come near
Everybody had soft corner but
Nobody tried to do the dare

Then one day this prince arrived
A night in shining armor
He put his heart in front of her
He was a born charmer

She surrendered after lot of struggle
The prince was happy as he never been
The lady got prettier with his love
To get married she was keen

Prince promised to come back early
And she stayed back to wait
But he’s gone never to return
And she though he might get late

She sat there waiting for him to get back
He never arrived in the city again
She kept her hopes high as sky
To see him, but all in vain

Oh that’s so tragic for a human
To loose the love of his life
Nobody can deny the truth
Though it cuts like knife

The other day I saw a gathering
In front of her home
She died waiting their
That window became her dome

Every body wiped this fact as
A sad story with the expected end
Later I heard about the prince, who kept his promise
Though he died in battle settlement

I hope both souls must have met
Up above in the in the sky
She died with lot of hopes
Now and then I see her eyes

Astonished

2005-12-28T16:57:00.000-08:00

Astonished and taken aback by your dare
The way you whispered in my ear
That you love me and brushed your lips to mine

My heart skipped a beat
And I uttered no words
My lashes pointing to ground
And a chill went down my spine

I didn’t feel anything my lips numb
I breathed higher as I could not catch it
My body shivered a bit with wind
There was no light but only moonshine

I really don’t know yet, what was the motive?
Of you kissing me that instantaneously
We hardly knew each otherBut wonder every moment came inline

Obscurity

2005-12-28T16:54:00.000-08:00

I want to clear away this mist
Which is coming in my eyes
Making my view hazy
I rub and scratch to see fair

I take away all the hair on my forehead
May be they are coming in
Not letting me visualize
My own life set adrift from my being

May be my lashes entangled
Mingled and crossed
Just like my thoughts in my brain
But I’m blinking them frequently

Water comes and makes the kohl
Smudge coloring the sockets dark
And the wrinkled skin beneath
My irritated soul fighting for the vision

Either it’s my sight not helping me out
Or the whole existence is obscure
Like the tainted glasses on our windows
To bury what we do inside our rooms

My First Post

2005-12-28T16:47:00.000-08:00

Though i made my first blog page on 28/11/06,but due to some confusion i made this blog again...so this is my first post to this blog..